Just stop engaging…

Just stop engaging…

When Belief Dies

I haven’t told many people about my gradual deconversion from Christianity to something (I am still uncertain if I can really give myself the title Atheist yet…). But I have been thinking a lot about why I am so reluctant to talk to people about my loss of faith in God.

I think it comes down to the following emotional reasons:

I am worried that they will reject me. I am worried that I will be thought less of. I am fairly sure that I would have to change my job (Christian charity worker here) and I am certain that I would lose friends as they gradually pulled back from me.

I think it also comes down to these philosophical reasons:

Morality is still too big a subject for me to ‘put to rest’ on pure chance and evolution. The historical evidence for the life, death & resurrection of Jesus…

View original post 1,258 more words

David Johnson: Skeptics and Seekers

Graceful Atheist

David Johnson
Click to play episode on anchor.fm

My guest this week is David Johnson, the co-host and creator of the Skeptics and Seekers podcast and blog. David is a former Church of Christ member and a pastor’s kid. He was baptized at 7, leading the church in song at 7, preaching at 12, the youth leader at 15 and assistant minister at 21.

Was I the real thing? Pathologically so.

His deconversion process began as he examined the Church of Christ’s doctrine against musical accompaniment in worship. He says “the little things, were the big things.” And if the little things were wrong, what else might be wrong?

You know, I think we might be wrong about that [instrumental accompaniment].
And that was hard for me.
It was hard in a way that I am not going to be able to express.
For me, if we were wrong about musical instruments…

View original post 135 more words

Those Who Went Before

Those Who Went Before

When Belief Dies

Your questions have probably been asked before.

It has taken me a while to realise that with everything I am going through, someone else will have been on a similar journey. Where we end up could, of course, be different but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t take the time to stop and understand who else has been asking the very questions that I am engaging with.

Imagine that you have been dropped in a new part of the world, the landscapes are unfamiliar and you are essential lost. You can push forwards, try to understand where you are by moving forwards and reflecting back when you can later on, or you can ask those who have been in this world before you, to reflect on their experiences that went ahead of you.

Take my journey of doubt as an example. Everything I am going through feels raw and new, nothing…

View original post 1,109 more words

A plea for these dangerous times

A plea for these dangerous times

Baldscientist

I hardly need to tell you that we are in the midst of a worldwide emergency; an emergency that sadly could have been contained here with relatively simple practices. I will not get into what COVID-19 is, since there is plenty of good resources about it out there. Suffice to say, right now there is no way to tell for sure how an individual will be affected by it. There are trends, but no assurances. It has infected and killed older and younger people alike. And one thing is for certain: this is no hoax or fake news. Moreover, we all know (even if some do not accept it) that what is going on right now is happening because this country waited too long to act. Now we are essentially in damage control mode. Hence, this is my admittedly “ramblish” plea to you.

It is no secret that I haven’t…

View original post 776 more words

Book Review: Still Unbelievable

Book Review: Still Unbelievable

When Belief Dies

Books have different impacts upon you depending on the season you read them.

As I read this book (July-August 2019) I am well on a journey of deconversion out of Christianity.

I am searching for community and answers, and thus I have read and listened to a whole host of resources. I want to begin to face up to my wavering faith in the Judea-Christian deity and engage in tough and honest questions.

Over time I have become a regular listener of a podcast called Unbelievable? – a Christian podcast, but one that engages very well with other worldviews and asks the sort of questions I was wanting to dive into. Through my time listening to this podcast I came across the host’s (Justin Brierley) own book: ‘Unbelievable?: Why after ten years of talking with atheists, I’m still a Christian’.

(A side note – I would whole heartily recommend both…

View original post 973 more words

Signs & Wonders (Part 3)- Miracles Debated with Robert L. White (Christian) & Matthew Taylor (Atheist)

Signs & Wonders (Part 3)- Miracles Debated with Robert L. White (Christian) & Matthew Taylor (Atheist)

This week I guested on a podcast to discuss miracles and why I don’t accept that they happen.

If you do listen to it, I’d appreciate any feedback.

Real Seeker Ministries

Anchor Audio Link = https://anchor.fm/real-seeker-ministries/episodes/Signs–Wonders-Part-3–Miracles-Debated-with-Robert-L–White-Christian–Matthew-Taylor-Atheist-eahkrj

Intro/Blog:

Well, it has certainly been a long time coming, back in November of 2019, I had a Round Table discussion on the topic of Miracles with 3 Atheists, including Matthew Taylor (from the Proscenium/Ask an Atheist Anything & Still Unbelievable podcasts); let’s just say that the convo did not go according to plan and neither Matt nor myself were satisfied with how the discussion turned out (see that Skeptics and Seekers Podcast here = https://skepticsandseekers.wordpress.com/2019/11/29/the-plausibility-of-the-miraculous-refuting-the-skeptical-presumption-of-scientism-naturalism/ ). 

As both Matt and I were not pleased with how things turned out, Matt reached out to me to do a Round 2 in the hopes of having a more substantive and productive conversation, this time around we were joined by Robert Lee White (from The Robert L. White Show podcast) and this time, I believe we have finally achieved what Matt and I set out to do…

View original post 536 more words

Unbelievable? Chapter 1

Random thoughts

This is the introduction chapter where Justin tells us the why of the book and the show. He talks about how he saw the light at age 15 how he met the woman who would later become his wife and all.

I almost feel like I should stop reading at chapter 1. He has dropped in names of big wigs among the popular atheists and theologians I am left wondering what new argument or point will I raise that has not been raised already.

Since Justin’s book is about encouraging conversation, I will attempt in my reviews and comments to avoid snarky comments. But where I can’t help it, let us hope my humour and sarcasm will take us through the book.

Get ready with your popcorn. It’s a short book anyway. So we will not be here for long.

View original post

Unbelievable: : Why after ten years of talking with atheists, I’m still a Christian

Random thoughts

by Justin Brierley
Is the book I will be reading this next week and I will review it chapter by chapter so I don’t have to make one long post at the end. It comes highly recommended maybe at the end, Jeff will become a christian and forget his Muslim ways.
If you have read it, you can weigh in below. Don’t worry about spoilers. I can watch the same movie twice the same week and it will still be as interesting as the first time I watched it.

View original post

It’s hard being honest

It’s hard being honest

When Belief Dies

I write this with the full realisation that this journey changes everything.

Honesty scares people, they fear that they don’t know you. Doubt confuses people, as they worry about where you are going to land at the end of the journey. But I don’t know if this will ever land…

I wake at nights. Honestly.

I see the faces of the people who have walked along the same paths as me over the last 30 years of my life. Most of them are Christian – but that is because that is where I have invested my efforts and time.

I see those same people there, cheering me on in my Christian faith, full of confidence in who God has made them and me. I see the ‘calling’ I was walking towards – to teach God’s people His word.

But then their faces change. Disappointment and rejection cast shadows over their…

View original post 505 more words

How this blog will work…

How this blog will work…

When Belief Dies

This blog is meant to be read as a journey. Each Saturday at 7am a new blog post will be published and will be diving into my personal deconversion from Christianity.

The posts that are going to be published are anywhere from 9-6 months behind where I currently am at. I have been writing draft posts during this time and have a lot to share with you all. The plan is for this blog to keep going for years, there is so much to talk about, so very much.

This won’t be an easy blog to read. If you believe in Jesus and call yourself a Christian I will be touching on some very real topics that will resonate with you. If you have never believed in a God or have left a faith system, then I hope you will be interested in what I have to say and I…

View original post 333 more words