Good Riddance 2013

2013 was a monumentally shit year for the family limey. Frankly, the sooner it’s relegated to little more than a distant historical memory, the better.

The crap actually started with uncertainty about my job and my employer struggled to find interesting work for me. Over the summer there was precious little for me to do and finally in November an interesting project came up but that wasn’t enough and I was made redundant the week before Christmas. Christmas was also marked by Mrs Limey having a foot in plaster following a dog related ditch incident. She’s on the mend now and has celebrated by being able to drive again over the weekend. Most of the last two months I have learned exactly how much she does around the house every day.

As I type this I am still out of work, there is a question mark over the insurance coverage for the mortgage and I am waiting to hear if I have a job interview later this week. The interview was supposed to be last week, but was postponed at the last minute. I’m trying hard not to fear that it’s going to be called off completely.

At the beginning of the year a couple of friendships exploded in deeply hurtful circumstances. The actual events were in late 2012, but the ripples and effects echoed throughout 2013.

During the summer, a good friend died suddenly from a long existing but unknown heart condition. She left a daughter the same age as my own and a son a couple of years older. It was devastating and hit Mrs Limey very hard.

These are just the things I am prepared to put down.

The result for me is that I sailed into the dark fog of depression and it affected everything, including our marriage.

Previously blogging has been a good way for me to get frustration out of my system, either by reading other people’s posts, or by writing my own. Unfortunately my mood was way too low for that to be effective for much of the year. Outside of blogging I have other writing projects I try to work on, I have ideas for a handful of novels and short stories and I try to work on them when I can. Progress is way slower than I would like and, while it has proved to be very effective at getting my mind off the bad stuff, I have found it increasingly difficult to actually sit there do something about it. Since Easter, the most effective distraction for me has been Minecraft! Effective it may be, but it’s not really the most healthy and I need to get back into more productive habits so I have reclaimed the kindle and I am now reading again and this is the start of me writing again. I need to do it for my own sanity.

Today is a major breakthrough for me because it’s the first time in a very long time I have actually voiced that I wanted to write a blog post. Hopefully this is the much needed indication that 2014 will be a major improvement and more positives will follow.

Thinking back to one of my more recent blog posts (https://confessionsofayec.wordpress.com/2013/10/02/the-atheist-prayer-experiment/), this would have been a very good opportunity for a caring deity who wants me back in the fold to make himself known.

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17 thoughts on “Good Riddance 2013

  1. Limey, I’m so sorry. So many personal challenges there.

    The depression part I get, that’s for sure. Continue towards the productive habits, even if it is just little by little.

    I really appreciate that you came to help me out with my computer problems the other day. I actually thought of you and wondered if you’d see my post. I did a system repair this a.m. because we’re still having problems but I think they are related to the system shutting down all the time because of the bad internet connection?

    Anyway, this to say thank you for reaching out again to help me AND to help yourself.

  2. I, too, understand the depression. Especially when things start to mount and it feels as though we have little control.

    I’m so glad you’re taking steps to come out of it. Sometimes it’s hard to find the motivation to do even menial tasks. Taking one step at a time and putting one foot in front of the other, though, maybe you can walk out of the fog. Being able to help others (Zoe) even in a little way can be such a boost.

  3. Very sorry to hear that things havent been going well. I understand what its like to be out of work for a long period of time. Its very tough. Glad to hear that Mrs Limey is getting better.

    • Thank you Tim. I’m sure it doesn’t need saying, but this would explain why there have been large gaps in my replies to you on the other posts.

  4. Like the others have stated I’m very sorry for the crappy 2013.

    Experienced a crappy last few months of the year myself.

    I do hope that 2014 is more kind to you and yours and that a job finds your way soon.

    As for the depression at least you recognize it. I realize that I spent a whole year of so depressed and didn’t really realize it for what it was.

    Thinking of you. Glad you were able to help Zoe.

    • Thanks AGW, sometimes life sucks eh!

      It took a few months for me to accept the truth. Improvement is definitely on the way, but it is slow and it certainly doesn’t ‘just happen’.

  5. How’s it going? I’m on a new computer. The motherboard died on the old one. Router & motherboard all at the same time.

    I wanted to say that the depression, when one starts to come out of it, it isn’t always a steady climb. Can be a one step forward, two steps back challenge at times. It’s in those two steps back moments one needs to hold on to the one step forward moments.

    • Hi Zoe,

      Thanks for the thoughts, I would have replied sooner but its been a bad week.

      I did suspect your laptop problem would turn out to be hardware, I would have tried to live with it for as long as possible. Unfortunate that it died so rapidly. I would guess its the video chipset that failed, and since that would be integrated into the motherboard, it would mean the whole thing is bin material. Glad you’re back up and running again now.

    • Four years isn’t bad, I certainly wouldn’t want one to last less. I store all my photos on an external mirrored drive. There would be lots of tears if I lost those.

      One hint for the new laptop, cycle the battery regularly. If you habitually leave it plugged in when in use the battery eventually loses its ability to hold charge.

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